Sunday, October 22, 2017

I Should
By Pam Hadder 
I should tremble
Like the poplar leaves
Chattering nervously
Hoping the sun peaks out
To cast her golden veil over me
Each quivering leaf a dazzling sequin
Silver, emerald and gold

I should duck and hide
Just like the autumn wind
Exhaling and swirling
Uncertain, meandering
Disrupting dead calm with erratic dance
Smoky, hazy, translucent

I should avert my gaze
Like the clouded sky
Fearful to reveal her
Honesty, beauty, courage
Shrouding blue clarity with gauze, feathers
Opalescent or white
I should, I should

But I will not


Friday, March 3, 2017

Re[purpose]d

By Pam Hadder

Purpose, purposeful – these words suggest a gentle-but-firm nudge in a planned direction.  When we lack purpose we drift in limbo versus living – most of us realize that when we reach personal crossroads.  Lately I have been thinking a lot about consumerism, commerce and capitalism – or the Big Cs, as I call them!  The Big Cs are weeds with lovely flowers – in moderation they are good for all (employment, diversity, opportunity, growth etc.), but if left unchecked we become overrun.  Unchecked capitalism results in the poor being exploited to make the rich richer, and a 2015 report by Oxfam suggests that we have reached an almost incomprehensible extreme.  According to their report, approximately 80 people are controlling half of the Earth’s wealth. http://www.theguardian.com/business/2015/jan/19/global-wealth-oxfam-inequality-davos-economic-summit-switzerland

A friend of mine recently scanned a handful of old photo prints to share with a long-time pal. Her pal was delighted to receive the vintage images, and remarked that these few images meant so much to her amid a huge personal stockpile of electronic photos.  The woman felt that she used to live more and take fewer pictures, and she also wondered what would happen to all of the stuff she had saved on jump drives, disks etc?  Would anyone care; who would ever have time to go through her thousands and thousands of digital images? 
I appreciated and understood this woman’s viewpoint, but as a trained photographer I must confess I love image making.  In recent years, I have had to be satisfied with the typical Mommy’s “goof proof” camera and smart phone pics – I have settled for the ease and immediacy of digital image making.  Long gone are the hours spent shooting, developing, printing and (in some cases) hand retouching or colourizing my prints.  I fondly recall the complete experience, however, including the pungent aromas of the darkroom – developer and fixer.  Those hours passed like seconds – I was completely immersed in the flow of creating and experimenting.  I never yearned to generate MORE at a FASTER rate, nor did I foresee that digital image-making would surpass and overtake film photography – the sense back then was that digital would never match the QUALITY of film.

Technology has made it increasingly easy to create, share and publish images – this too has both positive and negative implications. The aforementioned anecdote explores our relationships with images and image making, and it is just one small taste of a complex situation. Access to technology has given voice to the voiceless, has broadened potential experiences, and has allowed for real-time remote global connections – but it has also allowed for exploitation à la cyber bullying, false presentation of person and value; and theft/misappropriation of material and ideas.  We have also been pressured to evaluate, respond and produce material at an increasingly rapid pace. So is there a connection between global trends favouring extreme capitalism, consumerism and commerce and how we interact and share information – even on a personal basis? I think so – technology does not allow for pause, reflection and human contact.  We are duped into believing that a frenetic pace with incredible potential volume is meaningful. Further, we are expected to trust in statistics measuring electronic “engagement,” while eschewing opportunities for real, in-person connection and seeing traditional methods as dated or low value.  

As an artist I find pleasure in creation, and immersion in technology can be stimulating for a time, but one also risks becoming soul-less, isolated/isolating and reactionary. Are we making meaning or just making more stuff?  Who are we really talking to, sharing with, and to what end?  If you are like me, you are hopeful that our actions mean more; that they constitute more than an elaborate fantasy or, worse yet, meaningless busy-work. For creative people that resist the tech push, there is a risk of “not existing” in modern terms – traditional means of expression get overrun with technological volume and perceived value.  Furthermore, if commerce is king, and you aren’t financially well-heeled, you are considered a failure, and your existence, as well as your credibility may be questioned (are you feeling the Big Cs here?).

That grim realization pushes my thoughts of purpose and purposeful toward “re-purposed.” Kudos to those enterprising types that reduce, reuse, recycle and even make a living selling art, clothing, décor items, furniture, and so on, all made from materials that might have ended up in landfill sites. It’s hardly new – the hippies fighting for the environment in the 70s understood the importance of environmental stewardship and equitable use of resources. Although technology has helped many of these small companies engage and find customers, most of them are not getting rich doing quality work that is good for the planet.  I am wondering if we were able to balance capitalism if we might see simplicity as success and that we might enjoy LIFE more?

How has humanity allowed 1% of the planet to control half its wealth?  Imagine if governments stopped allowing so much foreign investment, urban sprawl, urbanization, gentrification, and so on – what if we carefully managed our resources and infrastructure, taking care to repurpose buildings, to protect green space and natural space; to ensure that good homes were affordable for all, to consider the needs of all citizens when making decisions, and to allow small business enterprises to thrive?  Perhaps we need to unplug, disconnect, and physically survey how much we are producing, consuming and holding on to; to take stock of what really matters and how we can do our part to ensure this world is a fairer, better place for all. Ultimately it is a value assessment - what really is necessary for our wellness and the sustainability of the planet. And at what point do our actions cross the boundaries of necessity and become driven by greed?