I Should
By Pam Hadder 

I should tremble

Like the poplar leaves
Chattering nervously
Hoping the sun peaks out
To cast her golden veil over me
Each quivering leaf a dazzling sequin
Silver, emerald and gold

I should duck and hide
Just like the autumn wind
Exhaling and swirling
Uncertain, meandering
Disrupting dead calm with erratic dance
Smoky, hazy, translucent

I should avert my gaze
Like the clouded sky
Fearful to reveal her
Honesty, beauty, courage
Shrouding blue clarity with gauze, feathers
Opalescent or white

I should, I should

But I will not